ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my life is so ziggy

i smoke cigarettes and take vitamins

i drink beer and kombucha

i hate sex and fuck anyways

i dream and do nothing

i mess the house all day long then clean it up

i love and i hate

i live while i die

i’m creative and unproductive

i eat healthy and junk

i love classic and funk

i’m rich then i’m poor

i’m interesting and a bore

A POEM FOR MY FREAKED OUT FRIEND

the sun is shining

little sparrows singing too

we are still alive

we have the power

spread it across the whole earth

your love is divine

don’t worry baby

everything will be just fine

nothing lasts forever

until the end of time

11:11

June 18, 2022August 14, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

eleven eleven

will i go to heaven

it will be like going on a blind date

i hope i can keep an open mind

i hope my journey will be kind

lifes last adventure

brings endless

possibilities

THE BLOB

sitting here

after watching a French horror

movie

my feet freezing

my body molded to the soft warm

leather

SOFT PINK ROSE PETALS FALLING FROM THE SKY

my love overflows

like zillions of fish swishing since the beginning of timelessness….

trillions and trillions of butterflies with patterns like a Persian rug….

millions and zillions of intoxicating flowers bursting from every corner of the universe

freshwater rivers that are never ending

oceans that heal and thrive with life

fresh air to breathe for every cell that ever lived

my wealth is abundantly overflowing

all of life is rich with abundance

all of life is rich with vitality and life

all of life is alive and exhilerating

this is me

this is you

this is us

nothing else exists

only happiness

only health

only truth

vibrating eternally

endlessly

forever

YOU TOOK YOUR LOVE

June 18, 2022August 18, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

away from me

leaving me

leaving me in misery

little did I realize

it wasn’t love

because love is kind

it would never hurt me

or desert me

so you took your love away

but mine remained

inside of me

and dwells in my heart

dwells in my heart

IF I LEAVE

June 18, 2022June 18, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

if i leave you

i can’t see that my life will be any better

i am broke and broken

and i can’t take anymore pain

if i leave you

i will just be trading one pain for another

from being a prisoner inside this house

to a prisoner out there

always someone watching

always someone controlling

always someone waiting

there is no freedom in samsara

the freedom you seek is only

when you die

this place is a joke

freedom is a joke

all i have to look forward to is just

more stress

more survival stress

can’t sleep there stress

can’t sleep here stress

can’t do that stress

can’t do this stress

if i leave you i will be gone

but you will follow me

you will haunt me

you will continue to do shit behind my back

because you are free

you never let anything get in your way

you do whatever you want to do.

in secret

DARKLIGHT

March 12, 2022March 12, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

BUTTERFLY POLLINATES MOON STARS RAIN AND THUNDER….FLOWERS BLOOMING

March 11, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

BROKEN

February 11, 2022February 11, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

your heart is broken ……

take that gold that flowed out

and put it back together

now it’s exquisitely

beautiful

MAYAN

February 7, 2022February 7, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

AWAKE

December 27, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

I wanted to sleep

But here I am

here we are

here are we

Here is us

This is it

Woo woo woo

coo coo ka choo

boom bad da boom

All is this

All is good

All is bad

All is everything

Good & bad

Is that sad ?

Are you mad ?

It is & it isn’t

What is mad when your glad

I wish I was sleeping

But I am

Awake

THE END

October 17, 2021October 17, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

like a gypsy, my mind wanders…. stuck in ruts for most of my life……..

hating discipline, my mind has wandered like a wild horse…. unable to tame….

wearing out now, searching for peace ….a release…..a transformation….

like a butterfly…..dancing in the wind…..

drunk on wildflowers

until the end………

BUTTERFLY

September 4, 2021October 1, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

(a work in progress)

LUSH

September 1, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

you….so lush and green

some day my body

will become you

the mother

the earth

the bitch

i’m that already

here i am

you

in disguise

sitting here

mesmerized

HA

September 1, 2021September 2, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

fuck you life my ass

i am that

i speak about

i get confused

when i have a disruption

my mind in defuse

thinks like corruption

but when you are down

so low

buried in dirt

your mind explodes

cause it’s not ready to

spurt

i think it’s a sign

that I’m not ready to go yet

gotta keep pushin

until i do it

whatever it is

i was meant to do

keep making mistakes

till i am blue

FLYS

August 24, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

fucking flys

they get inside my house

and life

i used to feel sorry

for them

and gently let them

out

now i kill them

JUNK

August 24, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my heart is breaking

so much love I had

for life

now realizing

it’s almost over

and i haven’t accomplished

anything

i am nobody

nobody

wanted

a reject

might as well

have been a junkie

the world

looks at me

like i am junk

PEARLS

August 16, 2021August 23, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

your irritation

inside my soft skin

became a pearl

now i have a pearl necklace

10,000 miles long

dragging behind me

as i walk naked

into the sunset

GONG

July 25, 2021July 25, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

zoon i will be leave

floating away like a leaf

to negative ions

SAMSARA

July 5, 2021July 9, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

all dressed up

like a mango tree

vagina full

of fish in the sea

eyes dripping black

rainbow

glitter

enticing you

into

her litter

her juicy fruit

to blow your mind

the howling wind

her behind

she gave you what

you came here for

sucked you dry

you did

her

such illusions

we live for

this life

this whore

we always

want more

her sunset lips

palm swaying hips

attract your attention

you are whipped

you pull over

in her

dimension

little do you know

her intension

all she wants is

your

submission

her tits are fake

but you don’t care

your mind is in your underwear

full of disease

she aims to please

all her tricks

up her sleeve

she walks the street

for all the horny

that fall for

her

and her

baloney

HELL

July 4, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the world is lovely

and sometimes it looks like hell

heaven and hell smell

and I’m so sick of it all

everything wonderful

and beautiful

turns black

not beautiful black

like a stallion

or African woman skin

but black like putrid death

we try so hard

to have good lives

while the innocent

are being raped

fuck you god

who needs a god

that can allow

babies to be

raped

who needs poetry

who needs art

who needs to have a nice life

life stops

beauty stops

goodness stops

when these mother fuckers

use a innocent life

for their perverse pleasure

fuck god for allowing such horrors to exist

fuck god and his creation

that only winds up

burnt to ashes anyways

the only peace is to not

exist

this heavenly place

is hell

THE OCEAN OF SPACE

June 28, 2021June 29, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

crystal turquoise light

pink lotus blossom clouds

liquid lace waves

rippling

green grassy ferns in forests and sun scented sweet honey wildflowers

reflections flickering

so deeply immersed

in the depths of the sea

this expanse of sky

deep deep deep

deeply

supernatural

eternal

echos

of a

conceptual perception

butterfly

would ever

need to

know

TRAUMATIZED

June 22, 2021April 17, 2023 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

but it wasn’t love

love doesn’t hypnotize

or fantasize

i was traumatized by my expectations

i thought it was love

what imagination

mother nature only cares about creation

now i am old

a little exaggeration

finally gave up on love

in my maturation

i survived

although my heart in dislocation

because i imagined

it was real

imagined

it was real

imagined

it was real

imagined

it was real

imagined

it was real

imagined

it was real

imagined

it was real

imagined

mesmerized by love

it was real

TO ALEX

June 18, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i gave birth to love

when you were born on this earth

you are my pure love

my sweetheart son

born of two intertwined

in a passionate embrace

destined to become

destined to love

destined to expand

this perpetual energetic

lifeforce

that knows no bounds

a pure energy

that never dies

was never born

is everything

and nothing

AMEN

just a faint hearted

prayer

of my love

for you

my son

my sunshine

may every star in the

universe

hear

every blade of grass see

every drop of rain

feel love Devine

every flower

every tree

every mermaid

every sea

every honeycomb

every bee

this

so lovely

peaceful

and free

NAKED

June 4, 2021June 10, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

naked to be free

my soul longs to break free now

so tired of it

everything is tight

take it off

free me from everything that binds

break loose

unbounded

naked

swim free in the water

let the sun kiss your naked butt

let the fragrance of the ocean perfume

your hair

bathe in the pine scented forests

let your skin breathe

let your mind breathe

let your soul breathe

nature has no bounds

the universe is a naked goddess

clothed in a million jewels

smelling like spiced rum

drunk with her nakedness

free to flaunt with abandon

into the ocean of bliss

SAN ANTONIO

April 15, 2021May 11, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

you’re not the same person

you were

when i met you

when i loved you

when you loved me

when we were

together

you are dead now

and i died too

with you

in me

hard to believe

our love died

love doesn’t die

like a fire fly

flickering flawless

from flames

falling

from flowery

fields

flowing

forever

fuck

BECAUSE

March 26, 2021March 26, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

it’s my karma

to have never been loved

by a man

to spend my life

away

spent my life away

on all the wrong men

for all the wrong reasons

while my heart

was pure

and alive with love

oblivious

that I was just

a fool

THE LAST

March 2, 2021March 13, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i never thought in a million years

you would be putting the last nail in my coffin

love is worse than cigarettes and alcohol
thank you for reminding me

i will be taking all my love letters to the desert

i will throw them in the fire one by one

then I will lay back and look up at the twinkling stars
my next destination

happy trails

THE BLUEZ

March 1, 2021March 2, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the mind plays tricks

when you fall in love

you think it’s real

but it isn’t

the mind plays tricks

as you live your life

you think you are living

but you isn’t

the mind plays tricks

as you lie there dying

you think you are dying

but you isn’t

the mind is a trickster

with no remorse

the mind is a trickster

like a crazy horse

what we think we see

is just an illusion

keeps the mind

in total confusion

nothing to see

nothing to do

nowhere to go

singing the bluez

CHOCOLATE

February 23, 2021March 20, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

caramel salted smooth

romance like no other

my tongue finds pleasure

teeth penetrating

the luscious parting

of scented air

and chocolate

pair with

lips like wine

you

so fine

and rare

do i dare

darling

stuff more of you

in my mouth

as i sit in this house

alone with

my pleasures

my dainty

treasures

and

my wild horse

mind

BELOVED

February 5, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i fell in love with you

but spent my whole life without you

and like a ghost

i am haunted by memories

a past that is dead

it doesn’t seem real

the last time i felt alive

i was with you

forced to go on

without your love

forced to go on

without your love

forced to go on

without you

amazing i still had love to give

amazing i had the will to live

amazing we are still in touch

amazing we lived our lives as such

amazing what little time we had

was never forgotten

never died

like a string of light still attached

to our hearts beating

in the night

nothing can destroy

love for real

i’ll see you again

in another life

i hope i become your

beloved wife

ALIEN

February 2, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

this strange existence

flowers falling from the sky

material and spiritual

nowhere to die

i get perplexed

from all the brainwashing

i’m disappointed

from material sloshing

i know what’s real

but i live in illusion

and then wonder why

all the confusion

feeling this unworldly love

amongst those that remain fixed

in the human realm

the unsatisfying existence of living with

them

it could be a utopia

so alien

OUROBOROS

January 24, 2021January 27, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i fell in love with

many things

inside

my mouth

stuffed

expanding

like the universe

you

keep me alive

then leave me

as my cold ass sits

alone

you travel

like a snake

to god knows where

but i always

find another

to replace you

to fill me

to leave me

my love for you

will last

until the end

funny

how

it all turns

shit

and blossoms

into

lotus

flowers

BLUEBERRY CHEESECAKE

January 23, 2021February 10, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i close my eyes

and put you inside of me

my mouth comes alive

with heavenly pleasure

no cock can compare

to your treasure

with little blue balls

decorating

your white cream

you make me scream

with pleasure

POMEGRANATE

January 7, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

unworldly beauty

voluptuous ruby cluster

alien design

why did you come here

why did you ever evolve

to bring us pleasure

your juice is devine

my lips wet with your wine

exquisitely i dine

like a queen so fine

till the end of time

SURREAL

January 1, 2021January 1, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

your love is surreal

like a desert landscape

of juniper spicing up

the glittering sand

while rainbows drip

from

the

skys

womb

filled with

endless

suns

and

daughters

swirling

glittering

endlessly

amen

to life

you

incredible

lover

you

LOVE

December 28, 2020February 10, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

your love sustained me

the food of gods

but I knew

that moment in time with you

would some day end

but time does not really exist

and love is all there is

were you my soul mate

when we made love

it wasn’t earthly

my body vibrated all day

from the unworldly love

generated

when we walked amongst humans

our love touched them too

amazing what love can do

HOLLOW (PART TWO)

December 27, 2020December 27, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

this hollowness i fill with comfort food

if i would just shut up and appreciate my present

moment in time

i am surrounded by luxury and opulence

my life is easy like sunday morning

yet i complain what i don’t have

like some stupid bitch

should i apologize for my poetry

not being uplifting

sorry

but my soul writes to relive the pain

someday when my life is filled with

love and light

you will feel my words shining

in your face

and see the other side of this moon

HOLLOW

December 27, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

like the moon

i feel dead

closer to dying than living

i crave

the smell of pine trees in a forest

i crave

to see the black sky

with a zillion stars

i crave

the sound and scent of the ocean air

i crave

the smell of warm petunias in the summer sun

FALLING

November 14, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the leaves are falling

like lovers falling in love

someday they will part

OBLIVION

October 31, 2020October 31, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

wilted leaves dangling

as the sun and wind blow

them to oblivion

24/7

October 20, 2020October 31, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

may all the snowflakes falling

purify this realm of desire

freeing all those that suffer

and bring peace

continuously

until the end

of time

UNSPEAKABLE

October 9, 2020October 10, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

sitting here drinking ice cold lemonade

looking outside the window

orange leaves glowing

i wonder how much time is left for me

amazing i made it this far

most of it was wishing i didn’t

then realizing…. i really don’t

and this… that does….is

unspeakable

STAY GONE

October 8, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

I’m still trying to get a van

Trying to get away from this man

He done me wrong

And I can’t go on

I need to leave

And stay gone

SPACED OUT

September 30, 2020September 30, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the moon is full now

i am out of cigarettes

staring into space

LIGHT UP

May 31, 2020June 1, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

into the light

praying for justice

praying for peace

into the night

fighting for justice

fighting for peace

evolve into the light

no need to fight

let the night be lit with stars

and moonlight

let silence fill the air

with love

may all wounds be healed

hear our prayers

tired of the suffering

it’s killing us

all

UN RAP juju

May 7, 2020October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

sitting here about to

unwrap

unzipping

your pack

then

my lips touch your skin

and i suck

you in

i quit

and start again

and again

again

my virgin lips

that never kiss

they only

suck

and blow

you’ve fucked me up

but i still go

sucking

like a hoe

i do you

and do you

do you

and do you

do you

and

do you

doe

why

do you

always want

ALWAYS DREAMING

April 13, 2020April 13, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

awakening from my sleep

a night of dreaming

to another dream…. awake

TIME

March 26, 2020September 19, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the rocks that rumble silently are mine

earth sounds i hear beat rolls across my room

i scratch the beat that’s dead created time

and weave into this solid mass time loom

rock is the photograph of times ruin

continuation clings like a disease

yet the living sleep inside a tomb

entertaining themselves with memories

winding antique clocks under christmas trees

ignorant of timeless and flawless days

writing diaries and painting the seas

chiseling emotions from time stained clays

and i pity us, if we too follow

these blind hypocrites in time they wallow

(1967)

4 AM BLUES

it’s half past three

i had my pee

smoking a cigarette

for free

waiting for sleep to kick in

the cats still out

and i am in

my neck is sore

coughing from smoke

the world is dying

it’s not a joke

my hands are dry

from so much washing

i forgot to think of flossing

thank god i have

food to eat

and toilet paper

by my seat

DWELLING

March 25, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the gyms are closed

work is slow

he’s home more often

nowhere to go

he drives me crazy

his sloppy ways

he doesn’t wash his

stuff always

i tell him he has to

take a bath

he thinks i am

a bitch for that

he scares me when

he starts yelling

i’m already looking

for a different

dwelling

EMPTY BLATHER

it’s half past two

i’m still not tired

the crickets are chirping

the cat is pawing

my hand is numb

from holding the phone

i should just take my pills

so i can sleep

i think i’ll get up

and take a leak

then i’ll smoke a cigarette

and wait until

i can forget

as dreamtime takes me

on a trip

the cats meowing

to go outside

the pee is leaking from inside

i finely went

i feel much better

now i will post

my empty blather

SPANISH CHEF

my heart just jumped

when i saw your name

you sexy man that cooks

from Spain

TIN NIGHT US

the house is still

the salt lamp glowing

cat on my legs

crystals flowing

i hear the sound of crickets chirping

they’re not outside

but in my ears

lurking

MUSHY

one flick a day is all i can handle

i’m getting to be an expert fandal

so many flicks not worthy of watching

amazing how easy to get brainwashing

hollywoods job to entertain

is really to mush our little brain

easy it is to control the masses

when our eyes are glued

sitting on asses

HEAVENLY

quiet and peaceful

in this house

a bowl of popcorn

on my lap

cheesecake in the refrigerator too

it is so heavenly

with nothing

to do

DEAD LOVE

March 25, 2020March 25, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my cat went outside

hunting for mice to bring me

as an offering

i open the door

stepping on the mouse that lay

on the altar floor

the mouse and it’s guts

bulging out for me to see

she really loves me

is this what the gods

expect to prove ourselves

sacrificial love

CAT & MOUSE

February 28, 2020February 28, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

it’s the midnight hour

and i feel hot

the fireplace is roaring

but I’m not

bored to tears

nothing excites me

wish I was tired

but sleep dispites me

I don’t know what

to do with myself

surrounded by walls

inside this house

while my cat goes outside

to find a mouse

TALKING TO MYSELF

February 27, 2020March 13, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

after a long

stiff

winter

time for new

beginnings

that feel

never-ending

again

and again

again

apple blossom

buds

blooming

in the warm

morning sunshine

a sweet gentle rain

thunder crashing

and a heavy

downpour

to cleanse

my mind

of icicles

dripping

like daggers

clothe me

a dress

of apple blossoms

and a sunshine

hat

breathe some life into me

and make me less fat

FOIE GRAS

February 14, 2020February 15, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

your love deep inside

my body dead like winter

you in ecstacy

GYPSY VAN

February 10, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

letting go

after all these years

accumulating everything

to survive

in comfort

while dying

inside

now realizing

how freeing it is

to just let go

to get ready

for my next

show

where i will have less

but will still

try to be as comfortable

and beautiful

as i can

in my

Gypsy van

LUXURY

February 6, 2020February 22, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i let go of my job

i let go of my bills

but i still hang on to

my toliet

how i love it so

i do not want to let go

i just want to

go in luxury

MESSED UP

February 3, 2020October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

sitting here enveloped

in this mess i made

looking for a cure for my body aches

my bath is waiting

so i can soak it up

living the life of leisure

writing poetry

so i can see

the mess i made

before i go

on to the next mess

until my messes are

cleaned up

and there’s nothing left to mess

HIATUS

January 27, 2020January 27, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

I never know

what I’m gonna write

These words just come

Like they turned on the light

In darkness I am cool

No words are needed

Then they turn the damn light on

And something is kneaded

So I roll it around on my unfloured

Thing here

Sometimes it sticks or will bake a few days

Sometimes it burns or I’ll throw it away

Never do I know what’s next

Amazing I am never perplexed

I never did talk quite normal

I never did like talking formal

The world in my head is quite comfy

In chaos

I try to explain it but something is hiatus

INTUITION

January 23, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my body heavy

like a mountain in love

the sweet smell of earth

my mothers voice

embedded in every cell

the buddha within

if you ignore her

she will find another way

she never gives up

learn how to listen

her voice is very subtle

until it’s not

OM

January 21, 2020June 18, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i’m going to write a beautiful poem

so tired of samsaric suffering

this world is our mother

her jewels are rough and raw

her fruit is heavenly

her flowers are ecstasy

these words are simple

because there are no words

suitable to even begin

all the suffering on this earth

disappears in time

even time disappears

when you project your mind

off grid beyond the milky way

zooming out of earths atmosphere

faster than the speed of light

everything disappears

every phenomenal perception

what is left

pure peace

pure love

nirvana

HEAVY

January 18, 2020January 22, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

when my love was pure

you came inside of me

but i didn’t know

it was you

your light

gave me buoyancy

but now

it’s slowly leaving me

deflated

like flat tires

on a truck

ALONE

January 18, 2020January 20, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

alone

i am

blissful

never sad

but sadness is in love with me

it lingers

like a cats tail

between my legs

caressing

me with it’s scent

it’s hell bent

to make me feel

real

so i can stroke

the soft tenderness

that lingers

at my feet

the sweet sadness

of love

never

leaves

alone

SUMMERTIME

January 18, 2020October 31, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

SAD

January 18, 2020October 30, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

don’t worry i don’t want you anymore

i wasn’t good enough for you

all your expectations

cheating on love

like it was nothing

maybe you were smart

you couldn’t be fooled

by love

an emotional fart

that ripped

us apart

traps you in it’s clutches

deserts you when you give your heart

such fools we are

to believe in such a thing

i wasn’t good enough for you

only good for a screw

after you got all you wanted

you were through

i wasn’t good enough for you

you had better things to do

left me hanging

like my soul was dead

too many men in my bed

not one was ever good enough for me

they never came close

to what we had

isn’t it sad

MAN

January 8, 2020January 19, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

oh man

I have gone over the edge

And I don’t care

RESCUE

January 8, 2020January 21, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

like a dam bursting

my spirit flows

dulled by the control

matrix that wants my soul

my nirvana is leaking

like acid

you’ve fucked me up long enough

my head is messed

but my soul is cool

i know I’ve been a fool

but love is

coming to the rescue……

DREAM

December 31, 2019June 4, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i had a very weird dream last night….all of a sudden…the earth was turned and churned…i looked out and i could see the acropolis down the street …but there was no street…all was huge upheavals of land and buildings…the earth had rearranged itself into a mass of contortions….mountains, cities, boulders of earth pushed up….nothing was the same…everything changed….in the blink of an eye….an overwhelming sense of disbelief…..chaos……i tried calling my mother to see if she was alive….many had died…..it was like a massive earthquake, unlike any before….the whole earth quaked…not just a part of it….it was all rearranged…instead of a normal house and street in front of you…there was a huge mountain, and boulders, the earth had changed and rearranged itself…..

My interpretation of this dream :

Sometimes when we have “bad dreams” or nightmares…it can mean or symbolize other than what it appears as….i sometimes have premonition dreams too….this dream happened shortly before i invested in some land ….the land was very remote and surround by mountains…completely different from my present surroundings….i would lay in bed thinking about what it would be like to live there…the rattle snakes, tarantulas, scorpions, bears, cougars, high crime in surrounding cities & state….i also daydream A LOT about living a nomad life, and if i should live out of a van, or get a truck & camper….all these thoughts and visions constantly rolling around my head….so i think this dream was a combination of the possible land ownership in a faraway place (premonition) ….and a deep desire to live a nomadic life….THIS WAS A PREMONITION DREAM ……a few weeks after this dream i was investigating land opportunities, in which i actually started the process of buying a remote 10 acre parcel of land in the high dessert……but after a few sleepless nights worrying about how i would survive living there….and of all the possible things that could happen, and what a hardship it would be to live without what i am accustomed to (toilet, running water, shower, electricity, medical care…..) I TALKED MYSELF OUT OF IT !

So right now i appreciate more what i have, a comfortable roof over my head, a warm fireplace on cold winter days, always food, water, toilet, shower, and nearby hospital if i get very ill…..at my age, i want to survive comfortably, not struggle harder, and put myself in unpredictable dangers, (more than i have to). But i know my thinking will change again, as it is winter now, and i’m in the survival hunker down mode…..when i get more energized (springtime) i will think i’m practically invincible, and will figure out how i can be a nomad again…..

But maybe this dream was a premonition of the world wide Corona Virus ?????

IDK.

6-3-20

OR maybe it was a premonition of the current turbulence caused by the cop that killed George Floyd ????

EMOCEANS

December 31, 2019January 20, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

being in love…then it ends

when it ends….then it begins

when it begins…..then it ends

always wanting….never satisfied

never satisfied ….always wanting

pushing and pulling….filling and emptying

if you can stop wishing…you will never want

be like a rock….calm under stress

be like you’re dead…before you die

before you die….live life fully

relax relax…..work work work

work work work….till you’re a jerk…..

when you’re a jerk…..you need to be alone

i love being alone all the time….does that mean i’m a jerk ?

i laugh at myself…..i love laughing

i rarely cry anymore….only when i think of you

when i think of us…..it’s a crying shame

it’s a crying shame…this is such a game

we gotta figure out…what this is

when we think we know…then we don’t….

when we don’t know….we wanna know…

emotions like the oceans……………….

FOOL

December 7, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

sitting here looking

in a mirror as i type this

wondering what’s next

my body breaking

down from abuse i never

thought it would happen

this soon i still think

i am young but my hands look

like i’m a hundred

i was such a fool

to think any of my dreams

would ever come true

but the dream of love

was my biggest dream of all

as it never ends

because i never stopped

thinking of you all these years

where did it begin

PEE POT

November 30, 2019January 20, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

well i’m chucking all the bills

and giving away my frills

dreaming about the hills

but my body is breaking down

like a van with too many miles

so when i get it fixed

heading for the sticks

on route 66

SKY

November 4, 2019January 23, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

listening to you play

is soothing to my soul

you are so beautiful

you gorgeous man

may the universe

bless you with

all that’s peaceful

blooming

with the scent

of rose

NIRVANA

November 3, 2019January 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the bliss of relaxing

after hard work & stress

is soothing to the soul

a glass of wine

rich with divine

or fresh squeezed orange juice

even left over pizza

even day old coffee drunken

from a styrofoam cup

after going through hell

ordinary phenomena

is nirvana

WILD & AND DEEP

October 11, 2019October 12, 2022 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i love wild horses

i love wild hair

i love wild flowers

in my hair

i love wild sky

windy and cool

i love wild hearts

free and fool

wild is my nature

wild is free

black is my color

deep like the sea

deep is my love

deep is my soul

deep is the sky

above and below

wild and deep

when you get to the edge

take the leap

DEEP DEEP REDS

October 10, 2019October 11, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

indescribable

is the passionate beauty

of nature dying

death is just a word

it doesn’t really exist

ask the cherry tree

LA LA LA LA LAND

October 4, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

you like poetry that’s happy and gay

like watching a disney movie

with nothing to say

just be hypnotized by the mice as they play

cinderella stories not life-like decay

poetry that reeks of disaster

rips the mask off of your

pleasant white plaster

GODDESS WHORE

October 3, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i can’t wait to get drunk again

and write about my pathetically

sad gut wrenching lack of love life

when i had nothing else to give

i gave it all away…like a whore….

i guess i was expecting love in return…

they must have thought there was

an endless supply…they must have thought

i was some kind of goddess whore…

funny….but my love never died…

even when you tried to bury it…

i hope this heart made of blood clots

and broken arrows will someday

flow again

so i don’t wind up here roaming

around….like a pathetic sad ghost

writing sad pathetic poetry…

LOST MARBLES

September 14, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i lost my marbles

when i was young

they were very old

with swirls of glitter

found in an old house attic

in a drawstring pouch

now searching the internet

for my beautiful marbles

going crazy

just what i needed

another thing to grasp at

marbles should be lost

ALONE

September 11, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i remember us

making love like dogs in heat

in abandoned buildings

then you abandoned me

and your love came crashing down

brick by brick by brick

i stood there buried

in the dark waiting for you

but you never came

rising from the dead

drinking my blood to survive

i gave birth alone

LOTUS HEART

September 10, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

if i was ~~younger~~

i would flirt with you all day

until sundown

but i am missing

a part of me that’s alive

killed by heartache

i don’t know how i even survive

this dead romantic

heart ripped out

replaced by a lotus flower

that grows in the dark

SACRIFICE

September 1, 2019September 1, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i am still alive

all the dead i have eaten

have given me life

PRELUDE TO A POEM

September 1, 2019January 20, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i will write a poem

after i finish this beer

if i’m still alive

ZEN

August 24, 2019February 10, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

breathing in and out

my lips wet with this latte

staring at this screen

NINJA

August 23, 2019August 24, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i gaze at my hand

thinking about some

beautiful flower

petal

that you would look at

and see the simple beauty

in the unelaborated

moment of time

stopping

breathless

tiny flower

petal

falling

from the eye of sky

like a ninja

MOTHER EARTH

August 23, 2019August 23, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

palm trees fern and date

gold diamonds and emerald

sandalwood and myrrh

mother earth

simple in her youth

lush with bounty

and extravaganza

as she aged

into a fat ass bitch

HENDRIX

August 17, 2019June 2, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

jimi you make me

feel so divine with lime you

purple haze my mind

METAMORPHOSIS

August 12, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

hanging by a thread

waiting for my wings to spread

living like i’m dead

OBSESSED

August 8, 2019August 8, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

he drives me crazy

everything he does

the emotional roller fucking ride

i can’t calm down

when i get obsessed

i ride this wild horse

like i’m possessed

i wanna run away

he won’t leave me alone

he thinks he loves me

but it’s only his bone

he fills me with rage

like an animal caged

some day i’ll be free i dream

while i stay

ZLUEZERRY ZILL

July 7, 2019July 27, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

gut wrenching tears

working all my life for what

wishing i was dead

fuck all the bills

fuck all the frills

head for the hills

DA DA

July 6, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

endless bliss blue sky

endless bliss stars twinkling

endless bliss blissing

no job togo to

no sound to hear

nothing to worry about

hum hum hum hum

ha ha ha ha

da da da da

THE NATURAL STATE

June 8, 2019August 30, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

nature is freedom

only man pays for his keep

as he rapes her

the natural state

is mans only escape

from this prison world

how do you get there

as you slave working til death

just disappear ?

wherever you go

you have to hide your freedom

or they will find you

i want to go to

this natural state of freedom

what price do i pay ?

HONEY TRAP

May 25, 2019May 25, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

It’s so sweet to dream

I will do this and that thing

My bed will be big

All the gut wrenching

Mind fucks this planet observes

Swimming in honey

What is this evil

Trying to prevent freedom

Always in control

I want to escape

From the land of law and order

This honeytrap life

DIAMONDS

May 2, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

when i was young

i didn’t know

where i would go

i never made

any plans

i just trusted

invisible hands

now youth is gone

and looking back

at all the trust

i gave away

i ended up

here

upside down

all my love

spilled

to the ground

the ground is rich

with all my love

and all the diamonds

to be found

WITHOUT YOUR LOVE

April 29, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

all the booze

i don’t care

drunk

on myself

in my despair

the memories

of us

so in love

turned to gin

again and again

when i think

of us

my body cries

without your love

my body dies

dead so long

without your love

dead so long

without your love

dead so long

without your love

dead so long

without your love

JAGGED

April 29, 2019May 26, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my heart

so sweet

like an angel

then

you

broke it

apart

our love

flowing out

like lava

hot

now turned

to stone

jagged

pot

FUCK LOVE

April 29, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

every time i think of us

in love

i cry

fuck you love

you made me

die

GYPSY

April 6, 2019June 14, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i am a gypsy

enslaved by the matrix

dying to be free

my breath of spirit

my breathing of dragon fire

this is ecstasy

THIS

April 6, 2019July 4, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

this blank space of light

and you waiting for something

this is all there is

UNCHAINED

March 22, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

in the moonlight full

i escape into the night

and howl my freedom

BITCH OF LOVE

February 24, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

mother nature… the bitch of love

desire is her trick

she’ll make you think you need it now

that’s why you have a dick

you fall in love a million times

as much as you have sperm

all she wants is mass production

love is on her terms

RICH

February 15, 2019March 24, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

MY LIFE IS RICH

AND IMA BITCH

GOT PLENTY TO EAT

MY CRIB IS NEAT

THE MAN THAT I’M WITH

I DO NOT TRUST

HE’S CHEATED GAZILLIONS

WITH ALL HIS LUST

MY LOVE IS DEAD

FUCKING IS BORING

IT’S WHAT I DREAD

HE LOVES WHORING

I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL CLOUD

FOR A BED

I’D GIVE IT ALL UP

FOR LOVE INSTEAD

LOVEFOOL

February 15, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

ZIZZY ZONG

January 16, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i drink the nectar of roses

then i smoke a cig

i feel flashes of nirvana

then i cook a pig

i wanna be celibate

then i blow his mind

this the hard place

between a rock

i work my ass off

to pay my bills

i am not happy

so i buy more frills

all i ever wanted

was a good man to love

but all i ever got

was a leather

glove

JUST BE

January 16, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my mind is tight now

but if i drink to make it loose

it will swirl into a paisley

exotic and hazy

and then i go crazy

and wanna get

outta here

where the

body

lies cold

and end

this

on and on i go

juggling life like a magician

keys in the ignition

engaged in activities

like i am sane

picking and choosing

what to play

in this game

afraid to let go

of my control

(this is insane)

stuck in samsara

suffering and karma

but

it would be so nice

just

to help ease your pain

FOO FOO

January 2, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

India gold and perfume

Id rather sleep till noon

Give me my bed

I’d rather be dead

Than be a slave

In this grave

Of foo foo

SAMSARA GOLD

January 2, 2019May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

leaving my cave soon

heavenly sleeping till noon

must put the chains on

fancy gold from india

and drag my ass

back to samsara

BREATHLESS

January 2, 2019October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

icing on the window
communicating
sweet words of nothing

like stars in the sky
appearing magically
disappearing silently

leaving me

breathlessly

DIVINE

December 9, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

not thinking
of what to say
drinking wine

music so intense
no pretence
the sadness
lingering

a cat in heat
calling out
for love

sipping wine
the world is so
divine…..

BOMBAY

November 18, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i want to escape

from this cage of illusion

of expanding bars

thinking where to go

only makes it more spacious

there’s nowhere to run

so what do you do

when you find yourself longing

to go far away

take a whiff of sandalwood

and bless your skin

with the bliss of bombay

LAST LOVE

November 15, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

Dancing slowly with you…

my dark darling death…

only heartache in this realm of desire…

yet we always return…

to the womb..

attracted by the scent of lust…..

when all desire is gone…

there will be no more suffering….

ENDLESS

November 10, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

my naked body stretches

the coolness of space

that is endless

THE BARDO CAFE

November 1, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

Seasons changing… spins my head

all these years living….like I’m dead

leaves falling like hair

my body cold

Snow…. like ashes…

forgetting… old

until remembered

again and again…

Channel #5 , Joy & Oud….

when we get to the bardo

there will be food !

POEM TO MYSELF

October 31, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

sweet child of light

living in this dark dark world

how you have survived ….

blood like molten lava

heart made from the

nectar of flowers…..

some day you will shine

in the black silent sky

RELAX SLAVE

October 20, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

drinking tea from a bowl…

i sit here amazed….

wind blowing through the pine trees….

a screen door separating

the natural world from me…..

(i didn’t want to let the bugs in)

but i feel like a bug myself…

in this house of dust….

while the dirt outside

is clean and fresh….

(except for the tailpipes exhaust)

a juxtaposition

of my exhausting life….

TO FEEL

October 14, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

all i have

is this heart

made from

heartache

my blood

drips

tears

blind me

my invisible

heart

beats

alone

GREEN VERSE

October 6, 2018November 20, 2018 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

who is this green queen you know….

i am queen of black

who longs for the king of hearts

now i know i’m not the one

for you know her more

what a fool i am

STILL LIFE

October 6, 2018October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

One sunflower not wilting

still holds his head up

the others look drunk

DELUSIONAL

October 6, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

still thinking i’m a lover

and looking so hot

then realize

i’m not

TOO DEEP

October 6, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

suspended in a state of anxiety

this existence of swirling energy

i wonder what it feels like to be the sun

images and conceptions

this wild frenzy of life

take me away into deep space

deep silence

maybe i should just

meditate…

SHIT VERSE

September 17, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

i quit

my shit is shit

so that is it

LIGHT VERSE

September 16, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

as light shimmers

across an ocean of love

my heart vibrates for you

RED VERSE

September 16, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

like hot summer roses in bloom

you intoxicates me

with your scent of love

like thorns on a rose

love protects the beauty

inside the heart

one without heart

like a rose without scent

has no poetry

BROKEN VERSE

September 15, 2018October 29, 2020 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

the color of life persists

in the universe

milarepa ate nettles

the goddess tara exudes

rays of compassion

one speck of love bursts into

a forest of trees

my heart captures your beauty

like a broken cup

mended with love

SKY VERSE

September 14, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

magnificent sky flower

you open my heart

and love grows inside me

PINK VERSE

September 10, 2018April 16, 2023 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

on the beach

washed up sea shells

sky wide as

the suns melody

sand hot as

crab cakes

iced lemonade lips

kissed naked

by your side

jewels of sand

glittering

Amen

BLACK VERSE

August 31, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

black moon

black sky

black hole

black eye

black swan

black horse

black dog

black hearse

LANDSCAPE OF LOVE

August 31, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

a washed up sea shell

soothed by an ocean of tears

heart pounded into sand

MERMAID

August 23, 2018August 23, 2021 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

fucked

a million times

someone who never

loved

her

what did she become

living with a devil-man

lust

was all he

knew

spent his money

on his

obsessions

wish she had listened

to her

intuitions

now she is

mermaid

living in the

sea

sleeping on a

bed of pearls

drinking lotus

tea

MOON HEART

August 22, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

sitting here

in timelessness dying

i cry

to think of being gone

from this heaven

from this hell

i must have sworn to be some

bodhisattva

my love

stones my soul

like the eclipse of the moon

DANCING IN BOLLYWOOD

August 22, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

I am a dreamer

and I imagine it’s you

have I gone insane

he talks about love

is he thinking of me

or some beautiful

young thing

thirty years in hell

stripping away all my youth

true love is timeless

funny how we dream

self preservation

dancing in Bollywood

NAGA LAND

August 22, 2018May 16, 2019 by ZONGS OF ZAMZARA

dreaming i was

choking

inside a

murky aquarium

i learned to

adapt

breathing

unworldly air

my mind relaxed

there must be some

naga blood

flowing through my

veins

i saw the ganges river

milky white

boulder’s of emeralds

rubies

topaz

glistening in the

light

did i cross the

river

over the triple

gem

or did i trip and

fall

FINE WINE

Don’t worry

i am kind

the kind that loves

loves to relax

all day

I’m not

beautiful

or young

maybe I’m

not the one

but I will hold you

in my arms

and laugh at all

your charms

love

can do it all

so don’t worry

baby

everything

will be

fine

♥

WANNA LOVE AGAIN

it’s

getting intense

all the mystery of

him

driving me

insane

i almost forgot

what it’s like to be

in love

i just remember

pain

whatever this is

i wanna see it through

wanna love

again

RAMBLINGS OF A ROMANTIC

i’ve been dead

for so long

walking this earth

like a zombie-slave

digging my grave

to find love

is so rare

like a pearl

in the paw

of a bear

i gave up

thinking

it’s not real

just mother

natures

way

sealing the deal

if i ever fall

in love again

it better be real

oh, samsara…you make me feel

unreal…

loves magnetic force

vibrating

me off course

unworldly love

that

created

the universe….

the primal

essence

of your sweat

anointing

my body

heat

lips

swelling

with desire

melting like honey

on fire

only love

can

this

to me

otherwise

it will not be

may it erase

all the pain

for

you and me

THERE IS A MAN